This post would have been published earlier, but I have spent the whole of my free time today tinkering with my camera and making a few sailors blush.  In all the melee about the laptop dying I may have forgotten to mention that I dropped my camera a few weeks ago, catching it  ninja-style between my knees and shattering the LCD screen.  Which was not a huge deal, the camera still worked.  Until it didn’t.  Now when I turn it on, it turns itself right back off.  I have changed all the batteries, checked the new LCD screen connection, cried, removed the batteries and cleaned the connections, and now am obsessively searching Google hoping in desperation to find a site that will say with authority that the solution to my problem is just to go on and give it a good whack on the table.

Because seriously.  Seriously?  I barely finish chiseling the R.I.P on my computer’s gravestone when the only piece of technology that I religiously carry with me bites it too?  Whiskey Tango Foxtrot, Universe.  I started out dealing with this situation in a very Beatlesque, We Can Work It Out kind of manner, and now I am just pissed off.  Like too pissed off to even think of some hyperbolic way to say pissed off like I normally would.

Being pissed off about this makes me the Great Potentate of First World Whining, but frankly, facing each day without the tools that I have been using for the past two years to help me find sanity and community and fulfillment in this life of non-adult interaction has been tough for me.  It has become clear to me over the last year or so that I am on a journey to find the next thing on the horizon outside of child-raising, and in the baby-filled interim this chronicling of life has been a bridge to whatever it is that waits for me out there.  But the bridge is growing less structurally sound by the day, and I feel like I am standing on the banks watching it crumble.

WOE. LE SIGH.  AND OTHER MELODRAMATIC STATEMENTS. I am writing through my frustration.  And now you have been brought along for the ride. If you have a personal rant of your own, I would be more than willing to relieve you of it in the comments section.  If not, please enjoy this photo (taken a while ago, since MY CAMERA IS CURRENTLY BROKEN) which just so happens to punctuate this post quite nicely.