Square root

Bug recently told me that he couldn’t wait until he was twelve.  This seemed like an arbitrary age to yearn for, so I bit and asked how come.  “Because then I can drive a car,” he informed me.  I suspect the look on his face after I told him it would actually be four more years from then is a preview of the one we’ll see after the tragic but necessary There Is No Santa conversation.

He’s already wishing he were older, bigger, faster, stronger.  And he will be, sooner than I will believe possible.  I’ll blink, and then it will be January 12, 2021 and we’ll be handing over the keys to the family car with trembling hands.  He’ll be sixteen, almost a man, deep-voiced, all knees and elbows, tall and dark like his dad. He’ll look down at me.  He’ll shave.  He’ll like girls and they’ll like him back.  Or they won’t.  He’ll have his heart broken.  He’ll realize sometimes life is hard.  He’ll realize sometimes life is beautiful.

But today he is four.  He plays with matchbox cars.  His voice is high and lovely.  He hugs me around my waist and watches his dad shave.  I am the girl he likes best (next to LG) and I love him back something fierce.  He is only just beginning to ask about the hard parts of life.  And the beautiful ones.

He is curious and confident. Energetic and ebullient.  Wise and wonderful.  He is beautiful.

He is the root of all he will become.  And I love him exponentially more each year.

Happy birthday Bug.



1 David { 01.12.09 at 8:00 am }

Great pic…happy birthday to Bug!

2 Gramps { 01.12.09 at 9:25 am }

Happy Birthday yto my favorite grandson!

3 Allen G { 01.12.09 at 11:15 am }


well then, happy 4 year anniversary on being a mom, Rachel!!

You are so loving and patient with all of your family, makes me feel that much more confident about driving by your house and having my kids jump n’ roll onto your lawn….

I promise I’ll be right back.

4 Leigh Ann { 01.12.09 at 1:30 pm }

happy birthday bug!!! can you believe i have to register sera for kindergarten this summer?!?!?!

5 alianora { 01.12.09 at 7:51 pm }

Happy birthday, Bug!

Today, you are four! As of yesterday, I am 30! Maybe that would explain why I cant remember that your birthday is the day after mine!

6 racher { 01.12.09 at 8:27 pm }

Happy birthday alianora!! Thirty is the new AWESOME, btw.

7 Trenches of Mommyhood { 01.13.09 at 4:04 pm }

What a lovely tribute!

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