So, I’m having a girl.

SHE is moving around a lot now. We bought a couple of things for HER. Bug is excited about his SISTER.

I’m practicing.

I kind of have to practice, because it still feels weird to call HER a HER. I discovered on Wednesday at the ultrasound appointment that I had been thinking about this baby as a boy since the minute the pee hit the stick. Mind you, I never had a feeling or a hunch that it actually WAS a boy, but in my mind and my future, I saw a boy. I guess I just know that kind of pregnancy and that kind of baby.

But SHE’s a GIRL.

I kind of don’t know what to do with that info.

She’s healthy, and we’re so glad SHE’s coming, but I still pause before every pronoun that references…HER. I’m just not used to it yet.

I went to Target right after the ultrasound appointment to buy something for a little girl, thinking that that would make it seem real, and therefore make more sense, but WOW was that not a good idea. I felt like I was going to break out in hives. Dresses, skirts, capris, sweater sets, shorts, pants, tights, PINK, PINK, PINK – I didn’t know where to look or what she would need or where to start. It was a tiny wee bit overwhelming.

So I bought a crib skirt. Which we already have.

I do think that it will get easier, and I also think I will be better at the girl outfitting than I fear at this point, but the HER info is still kind of fresh and requires a little processing. So I’m going to do some of that first, and then get back to the pinky- pink-dressy-skirty-(OMG hairbows I forgot about those) of it all.

Bug said to me at one point while we were standing amidst the fuschiosity of that little girls section – “Mom, the baby is gonna wear pink, just like your favorite color is pink!” And I remembered that he had been saying all along that he thought the baby was a girl. When I would ask him why, he’d just say, “Because of you.” I can’t imagine what he could have said that would have made me feel better than that.

So I’m getting ready for HER and focusing on the GIRL sections of the baby name books now and picturing our lives later on this year: Me, Lorso, Bug, and our GIRL.

Our girl.